My head is full of thoughts and my fingers are racing toward a notebook with such energy that I almost cannot contain my enthusiasm. I have no real idea what will come out there, only a smokey vision of this thing I must do. Something is happening.
It’s time to begin. It is time to begin the planning stages. I have no idea what this really means. I only know that I felt this way when I chose to follow Christ and everything changed. I felt this way when I decided to become a Casa Volunteer and everything changed. I felt this way when I decided to marry Cowboy and everything changed. I felt this way when I decided to become an adoptive mom and everything changed. I feel this way before each new artistic venture. I feel this way now. Inspired to move.
I only know that I recognize this peaceful inspiration as the Holy Spirit. I didn’t always. I used to let this kind of sleepless excitement fill me with worry, but I have learned to just go with it, or at least I am learning. It is just so sweet.
I have no idea what direction to move but I am not going to worry about it. I have no idea where but I am not going to worry about it. I have no idea how but I am not going to worry about it. I don’t know if I will be alone or with someone but I am not going to worry about it. I don’t know what this will look like but I am not going to worry about it. I am going to just trust that what is on my heart is there for a reason and this time, I am going to just trust that God has got this. He will get me where he wants me to go.
Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my eye upon you.
I will let this play out His way. I will keep my eyes open to the possibilities. I Know that If what is on my heart is from God, and I don’t do what he has laid upon my heart, someone else will. I don’t have so much significance that He cannot inspire another. So I am going to pay close attention and with gratitude and awe, accept my invitation to the party.
Straight up… No one throws a party like He does. You don’t want to miss it! It’s a rush.